MAMA, IT HAPPENED AGAIN TODAY

Mama, it happened again today.
My world came to a grinding halt, or so I felt
Everything went sideways.
I broke.
I contemplated giving up;
I simply couldn’t go on when my very soul was crying out, BEGGING me to quit
But no, I fought it, and fell into a deep dreamless exhausted sleep.

Mama, they did it to me again today.
They shattered my world. My worth. My self.
They unscrupulously tore me down, tore into me
Piece by piece, I started falling apart.
Then I imploded; everything within blown to smithereens.
But still, I stood.

Mama, it happened again today.
SOMEONE razed my walls, my defense system, brick by brick.
Someone silently slithered through and within, and convinced me I did not need them
Someone stripped me bare,
Exposing my nakedness for all to see,
And then vanished.
I died today, mama. I died.
Yet still, I live,

Mama, I questioned again today.
I questioned God.
Questioned His love. His presence. His attention (or lack thereof). His power.
I put Him on trial and questioned Him, as I played both prosecutor and judge.
I felt like I was in a boxing ring, and had to throw some punches.
And still, at the end of the day,
Mercy sought me.

Mama, it has happened again today.
I AM HAPPY!
Mama, I have stopped complaining today. And henceforth.
I have myriads of scars, yes. Undoubtedly.
But they remind me of this.
I am alive. I am well. I am healthy. I am loved. I am blessed.
I fought, oh, I fought! So hard.
And lived to tell the tale another day. Again.
Many have not- lived to tell the tale.
Mama, I promise that
Before I am tempted to complain next time
I will remember this.

2 comments

  1. Just Jane · February 13, 2019

    This is beautiful

    Liked by 1 person

    • magigeoh · May 22

      Thank you so very much Jane. I’m humbled 😊🙏🏽

      Like

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